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Lack of Participation Award
Since moving to a new state, I have had to expend a lot of energy making new friends. I've also been trying to maintain connections with other meaningful people in my life. Turns out, I do not have the stamina. I have grown increasingly more leery toward people. I...
The Ubiquity of Loneliness
My last post about loneliness was met with a loud cry of solidarity. Which left me with the question: Why are so many people lonely? There are so many ways to connect. But we don't. Not really anyway. We "like" what people are doing or we comment on how others are...
Loneliness and the Lost Art of Friendship
Doug and I usually feel desperately alone. We work, a lot. 60 plus hours a week we're at our store. Yet, we can still find time and move our schedules to try to make seeing people an option. Sometimes we make plans and it doesn't work out and it sucks. Things happen....
Sexual Abuse and Hygiene
Diane Langberg's book, On the Threshold of Hope, is full of wise and healing advice. So much so, that I couldn't actually get past a particular chapter. Turns out, there are things even I would rather not face head on. What a lot of survivors won't tell...
PTSD and Laughter
It was during a one act competition my junior year that I ironically won an award for playing a young actress who was struggling with dissociative identity disorder.I had no idea what was waiting in my mind. Looking at this picture I see a very different...
It Isn’t Easier: Part 2
It has been brought to my attention that my other post was dripping with something called, "white privilege". As a person who has yet to experience any of the benefits of being rich and white, I have to argue that I'm not a recipient. Anyone who knows me knows that I...
It Isn’t Easier
I saw this Post Secret postcard today. Amid the chaos in the news and on Facebook and Twitter and every other social media I want to tell this girl, "It isn't easier." It isn't any easier to be white than to be any other race. I am white. It's not easy. You aren't...
Please Stop Saying You Have a “Phobia”
Phobias are a real thing. They are severe, pervasive, and debilitating. When your frontal lobe (reasoning center) shuts off because you are terrified by the prospect of whatever the stimulus is it is more than just being scared of a bug. There are things I can't look...
Healing and the Comparison Game
Everyone's life is different. It's just the truth. It seems that there are just as many disabilities as abilities and we see story after story of people overcoming obstacles. I just saw that someone- that I admit I was not particularly fond of in high school- has...
Take From the Rich and Give to the…who?
This week I took a major blow in the healing department.I was rejected by my choice facility because drum roll....I am poor.Also, I have night terrors. Is that a liability? How can a place "specialize" in treatment for PTSD, but deny me because I have night terrors?...